to infinity and beyond

Monday, February 19, 2007' 2/19/2007 12:41:00 AM

Not that i have no other line to start my blog post with, other than how happy i am to be able to blog again, BUT i really am overjoyed to be able to blog again! (ok, the sentence was annoyingly long, i know) Blogger's been so screwed, i swear.

My internet connection has been cocking up and i haven't been online for quite some time now.
As in, i haven't been online PROPERLY without the connection coming and going every 5 mins.

So anyway, i recently went shopping with my mom!
After such a long time, i finally went out with her alone.
No my sister wasn't there. If she was, i'd have nothing else to blog, other than "so anyway, met my mom and then, we met up with my sis, had a great time".

Since i went out with my mom and my mom only, i had the opportunity to finally shop without interference! =) The only interference and cause for the moments of silence between my mom and i was the credit card she possesses. Now that, i definitely dont mind.
Sooooooo, i went crazy shopping/buying stuff i needed(wanted)!

I realise, i never spend for anything i want. I end up spending 3/4 of my savings on food and beverages as well as transport. I only purchase things that i really need.

I mean seriously, i think that that could possibly be the reason why i usually end up WINDOW shopping instead of really shopping. Maybe, its partly due to my fear of regret but mainly its because i feel guilty spending money frivolously on something that i WANT, instead of something that i NEED.

What more, the things that i usually want, usually cost a bomb. And so, i get satisfaction, albeit not a 100%, from just ogling at the things that i want. Yes, i ogle, got a problem with that?

So back from the digression, i went out shopping with my mom and i ended up buying a white cardigan/jacket for 18 bucks, a pair of new footwear for 19 bucks and the highlight of the day, a new MNG dark-pink-close-to-purple long sleeved, tunic(so says ain) top that cost a bomb. A bomb refers to 45 bucks.

As you know, i prefer practicality. So, for me, 45 dollars for a top seems too...exuberant.
You know the feeling when you're in a hotel, and you're hungry to the extent that you would willingly eat a whole horse, and the only food you can buy is a plate of Mee Goreng priced at RM30=$15, and you have to buy it else you'll die famished? Yes, that was how i felt while pondering whether or not to buy that top for 45 bucks. My mom on the other hand was influencing me to just pick the thing up and buy it. The weird thing was, i wasn't the one who had to fork out the money. She was saying about how i worry and think too much, how i usually end up buying nothing because i'm a worrywart.

And so, i finally bought the most expensive top i have ever bought in my entire life.
When i got home, the feeling of guilt suddenly started to sink in. No idea why.

Sometimes i wonder how it would feel like to be filthy rich, to lead a carefree life, to be a nonchalant person, to wake up everyday thinking "what shall i do with the rest of my money today?", to not have to worry about financial problems or higher education, to always have money for the rest of my life, in sickness and in health, till death do us part. I wish.

Oh well, untill i become wealthy and known, i shall stop wondering and start working my ass off. I'm missing my mates, and constantly worrying about my future life in JC. Just hoping it wouldnt suck that bad. I'm going to SRJC btw. Yes SRJC with 12 points for l1r5 and 4 points bonus. That makes it 8. I must be crazy. (showing off abit)

But hey, SRJC is very near to my house, very accessible, offers both H1 and H2 art and A-level education. I may or may not hate it but i shall make do with it.

Till next time, good night!