to infinity and beyond

Monday, June 16, 2008' 6/16/2008 07:46:00 PM

Its the last week of the June Holidays, my assignments have been on display, I've barely touched my revision notes, my coursework finale never got started (disastrous considering how majority have already begun, some almost finishing theirs). Damn, does JC2 life suck big time or what man!? I don't do so well with challenges, like the impending one my family's faced with currently. Visiting hours at the hospital nearly everyday have taken up most of my time.

Beloved grandmother/mother/wife/cook/guardian is now immobile, bedridden and tube-fed in Tan Tock Seng. Cant recall the last time i tasted her sambal goreng. Stroke can be very deadly but we try to stay optimistic, thanking God that only half her body has dysfunctioned due to the brain swelling. Can't say it was unprecedented, she suffered minor facial stroke about 5 to 6 years ago, but obviously no one saw this coming. Who knew what God had in plan for us.

It's been 2 weeks plus now since she was admitted on 1st June, my aunt's birthday and the day she was suppose to visit Malaysia for my grandad's-brother's-son's wedding. What a date huh. Everything still seems rather surreal to most of us. Though we found it hard to swallow at first, we have become rather immune by now. There's improvement but at the rate that she's recovering, seems like this year's Hari Raya would have to do without her Rendang, her famous Sambal Goreng and what not. Very disheartened by the grief that has overwhelmed my grandad. Either one of us grandchildren now has to stayover at my garandad's place every night to accompany him. Well it's only right that we do so, since my granparents helped raise all 9 of us since we were born. Hope this ordeal would soon be over with, although rather unlikely. No harm venturing away from pessimism for once.

To those who were there to listen to me being super emotional, thanks big time :)

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On a lighter note, Singfest is back! This time with artists who actually appeal to me! Alicia Keys, Stacie Orrico, Jason Mraz, Jamie Scott, One Republic and many more! I so badly want to go but still considering the moolaas which i'd have to fork out. Plus, prelims would be just round the corner in August. Damn. Are they worth my 200 bucks and my much needed time??? It's just a day? Shall think somemore.

Gottago! Chao.
ps; got this ominous feeling that i'll flunk my A-levels and go to poly or artschool or drop out totally. shit man.