My guilty conscience? Checked.
My belief in Him? Checked.

I'm just glad, that today, a friend of mine, knocked a great deal of sense into me.
"If there's one thing you cannot afford to lose in life, it's your Iman."

It's as though He knew I wasn't searching for answers in the right places, and deliberately sent her to seek help from me, so that I could in turn get the help I desperately needed. I am in awe, of how great He is. Masya'allah.

Dear Allah, I just want to let you know, that You have always and always will be on my mind. That no matter how f***ing screwed up life can get, or how ashamed I am to ask You for forgiveness for all the wrongs that I've committed, I see now, that You love me despite them all. And today, I literally felt that. By how crafty and ingenious Your plan was, to eventually help me realise my place in life, and that You're there for me always.

ps; 3 things I'm hating right now.
1) losing my voice, hence the inability to sing
2) pimples
3) being flat broke

5 things I'm loving right now.
1) my family, my whole extended family
2) my friends
3) my bf
4) my macbookpro
5) Pokey strawberry

Number of things I miss? I lost count.