ITS TWO FREAKING THIRTY TWO AM AND I HAVE FORCED TWO CUPS OF COFFEE DOWN MY THROAT AND I AM STILL FCKING SLEEPY AND I CAN'T SEEM TO FOCUS AND MY MIND JUST STOPS DIGESTING ANYTHING BEYOND A MINUTE OF READING ANY PART OF THE DAMN TEXTS AND I HAVE TO FINISH THIS REPORT BY TONIGHT AND IT IS GETTING ON MY NERVES HOW DISTRACTED BY NOTHING- BY NOTHING!- I AM AND I AM LOSING MY MIND JUST THINKING ABOUT HOW TIRED I AM AND I OUGHT TO STOP COMPLAINING NOW BUT I DON'T FCKING CARE BECAUSE I FEEL SO ANGRY AT MYSELF FOR NOT BEING AS DISCIPLINED AS I USED TO BE AND FOR REALIZING THAT MY IQ LEVEL IS BEYOND SALVATION NOW AND I JUST WANT TO SLEEP BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE I JUST DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO SPARE AND I HAVEN'T HAD ANY PROPER SLEEP EXCEEDING MY MAXIMUM OF THREE HOURS SLEEP EVERY NIGHT FOR THE ENTIRE WEEK AND I AM GOING BONKERS AND I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO LOSE IT SOON IF I DON'T FINISH THIS NEVER ENDING PILE OF WORK AND MY ENTIRE LIFE WILL BE RUINED AND I AM BEING SUCH A KID RIGHT NOW RANTING ABOUT ALL THESE BUT FUCK I JUST WANT TO BE A KID AGAIN I REALLY DO I REALLY DO I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS PREVIEW OF WHAT LIFE IS GOING TO BE LIKE AND IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A STRUGGLE AND I AM STILL STRUGGLING AND WHEN IS IT EVER GOING TO END URGH MTF