there is a fine line between wanting someone
and wanting someone to be there when you need somebody

i am a girl
and i don't know what i want
tell me what i want
keep telling me until i stop saying no
and start saying, yes that's what i want

until then, don't ask me what i want
just remember what i don't
and things will fall into place



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i have never been a rich girl, never led the lavish life of luxuries,
i only consider myself slightly above average, living moderately, enough to fill my every need
i think i get what i want most of the time
4 children, and still leading the pampered lifestyle, i don't know how my parents manage so hats off to them,
as it is i'm beginning to feel the pinch of being an adult now,
having to be financially independent for most things my parents consider unnecessary
not that i can't depend on them financially,
but there comes a time when we feel obliged to stop asking,
and soon enough feel responsible to start giving back in any possible way
this is why i'm studying hard
and i keep telling myself that everyday of my life
i could only hope to give them more than what they've struggled to provide me with

for now, i just need a side income back, desperately
because some wants have just evolved to become a need in life at 20